My apologies! I've had a lot of curve balls come my way and there are going to be several more before The Hubster comes home for mid-tour. How do I know this might you ask? Well.. its my life and its hell without him home. Dealing with plain LIFE is one hell of a struggle without him here to pick me back up. I get asked all the time.. "How do you do it Cora?" Most of the time I answer with a "How do I NOT do it?" I've completely learned to adapt and overcome a lot since marrying my Husband. You don't really see me complain a lot about missing him. What's missing him going to do? Nothing. It's not gonna change the fact he is gone for another God knows how long. It's not going to make him come home faster. I only let myself miss him a little bit and when I do, I guess thats when I vent. Most of the time I just try not to think about how I've only spent 2 months out of the almost year and a half I've been married to him. I try not to let the fact that I haven't had the chance to grieve over the loss of our baby with him yet. I try not to do a lot.. but guess what? Its way freaking hard. Yes I realize that it can always be worse. Cool. Its not a competition. This is my life.. and whatever is going on in yours, has nothing to do with mine.
I need to tighten my saddle and just hang on with my everything. I know things will eventually get better.. but until they do, Im stuck. I know Im strong and I can handle anything that God puts in my way. I know he wouldn't put anything in my life that I couldn't handle. Im trying to do my best with what I have at the moment and sometimes that doesn't seem good enough. I wish I could go home and spend time with my family before The Hubster and I move clear across the country to Georgia to our new duty station. I wish I could do a lot.. again, I wish The Hubster was home so we can actually start the list we have that needs to get done.. Our time will come and I just need to be patient.